The time has come~

The lights grow dim…

Oh,here in my house,

my thoughts constantly weep.

I’m in need of a good night's rest, so lay me down. 

Take the weight off my chest. 

There are no words to say other than I let myself down…

 I called out to the heavens, and even God wasn’t around. 

There's a loneliness that consumes me,  in a room full of people.

Who chatter amongst the wicked.

 No one knows how bad it really is; 

This sickness…

Loneliness is born from the secrets of  my shame.

The drugs seduce me and call out my name.

No one else is a witness, but my own reflection.

Even then I lie with the devil's deflection.

Now to be honest, 

I don’t understand why you would want me in your life.

The truth is;

 I don’t see the value of what I can bring,

 I am  damaged goods…

Damaged isn’t even the right word to describe, WHO, I am.

 I don’t wanna drown you, take you beneath and sink you in.

I tend to ruin it, before it even begins.

So, maybe if I’m in a better place and can turn back time.

 I’d redo the things that control, how I am defined 

It’s like my colors have perished. 

I want to see things brighter like the sun that I once cherished.

 Now, please don't pity me, my love.

For my heart is open—

 I just can't help that I am broken. 

—Katy Dutil